How annoying is that?
If you clicked on my blog link, thank you- I'm not sure I'll be able to handle a blog along with managing this website, an email list, two social media accounts, life in general- oh, and right- all the time it takes to create the work I create!
But I do like to ramble on so maybe I will keep this up sporadically.
It's Feb 12th, 2025 and I'm looking ahead at a year that was planned when my father was still alive- a year of being available, both with my time and my energy, to help him and my Mom manage his rapid decline and the crisis-filled, stressful life we were all trying to get through. It was hard to commit to anything and hard to feel confident diving into long, involved projects I enjoy doing.
But on Jan 6th, 2025, he passed away at 92 years old. The end was overdue and we all hated seeing him suffer, but losing a parent is like nothing else. I should specify- losing a good parent. Like any human he had his faults, but he always believed in me, he always supported my work even when he really loved the iphone photos of my cats more than anything!
Facing the fact that one of the two people in my life who have always loved me unconditionally is gone was hard to comprehend until it happened. His loss brings a deep grief but also a chance to reflect on all he was as a man and a father.
So now, with that heavy load of caring for someone who needed a lot of help and the stress of seeing his suffering, released with the release of his long life, I am now re-organizing the year ahead.
I now feel like I can get back into the darkroom even if it's just spent making work only for me- I have that time back- the time I kept on reserve to be the daughter I wanted to be for my father.
A scan of a very over-exposed negative shot with one of my Holgas that I wish I had noted as the one producing this odd, diorama-esque looking scene. It's out in Big Bend Ranch State Park, Tx- Guale Mesa. One of my favorite campsites- Guale 2.
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